The Flipping of the Coin

Posted on August 29, 2016 ยท Posted in Uncategorized

I took this photo a few days ago during our vacation to the Olympic Peninsula. As I looked through the lens of my iphone, I was struck with a sudden realization–the coin has nearly flipped. I’m now looking at my son from the other side of it.

My mom recounts an image that has entrenched itself in her very soul, of my grandparents standing together under an old pecan tree, waving at us as we drive away after an all-too-infrequent visit. (We lived in Oregon, they in Texas). It’s an image that haunts her to this very day, and one I remember as well. We never knew, as we left, if there would be opportunity for another visit with the two of them.

In recent years, I have experienced this same haunting image as my own parents grow older. They stand together, waving from the front porch as we drive away, back home to Washington. My heart breaks a little each time. They are both now in their 80’s and I know time with them is growing short, and our visits are all too infrequent.

So it shocked me to the core the other day, as I watched my nearly 16 yr old son looking at me from further up the trail, that very soon–too soon–he will be the one driving away, leaving his dad and I to wave from the sidewalk.

I’m not ready to let go yet.

Nor is he, thankfully, ready to venture out yet. But I know my mama’s heart must prepare for that day which approaches so very quickly. I don’t want him to go, neither do I want to keep him from the adventure of life God has planned for him. What’s a mother to do? Sigh

Guess I’d better stake out my spot on the sidewalk….